I haven’t written for what feels like long centuries. It’s actually been a few weeks, interspersed with a visit by family from India and going out of town for my anniversary celebration. And I have been itching to come back and write again. But when I’ve sat down to form words, my mind feels clamped shut.
Today, my hands are heavy on the keyboard and I want to get away. Writing feels painful.
Writing also brings clarity, it brings all this stuff that we’ve stuffed down bobbing up to the surface. I want to push it away, make a ball of it and throw it out of the window but it keeps bouncing right back. Writing calls out. Are you willing to feel? Do you want to? Or not?
Among other things, he talks about how it’s no longer safe to just play safe in today’s world. How clinging to the safety of what we’ve always known will destroy us because the rules are already changing. And since he talks about the shift to a connection economy that rewards risk-takers, he also talks about the supreme risk-taker of all – the artist. And the artist is not just the painter or the musician, but anyone doing anything new and risky and bringing it out into the world.
You can begin where you are and get your work out there in the world. But, as Godin quotes Adrienne Rich, “The door itself makes no promises. It is only a door.” Beyond that door, lies our opportunity to connect, our possibilities. But nothing is guaranteed.
Godin calls this emotional labor. I understand what he means, as I am sure does anyone who is working on bringing forth their ideas into the world. It takes courage to step through a door that has been opened to us. It takes emotional work.
We don’t know the rules because it’s a new world. We have to turn inside to negotiate the twists and turns. We’ve not been taught how to risk, and we learn only by doing it.
And then I fortunately thought, holding on to the belief that I needed to present myself in a certain way as a writer was what had held me back from being one all this time. Is my audience not an audience because it is not reading my book ? Is it a lesser audience?
It’s a little risk my heart took, and it’s a little risk that has paid off. Sharing my work instead of keeping it in helped it grow, so other people could see it as well. And that helped solidify my identity as a writer. If you are an artiste of any kind, you have probably asked yourself: Am I really a painter? Am I really an actor? There is no easy answer because who can say that but yourself? There’s no way to quantify it.
That’s an interesting point to consider. Why do we make art ? Isn’t it to expand who we are, to attempt something that nudges us to become bigger? As artists, we have to keep asking: Do I have the courage to share what I believe? Art is, in the end, a statement. Of who we are, of where we are going. If we keep our work in, we are stopping short of making that statement.
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